Running From Myself

I hate this place between my ears
It's a bad place to be alone
Runnin' from my mind
Runnin' till
I don't feel hope
Runnin' from the noise
Runnin' from the thoughts
I know
Running from myself running
But it won't let go
Shadows in the corner, I can feel them breathing
3 my hand, I'm still scrolling
Same four apps, I don't even read
Just trying to stay up so
I don't even trust me lately
Get your light on, I don't know why
I left it
Walk past mirrors
I avoid my reflection
Little things
I do just so
I don't get tested
By the voice in my head
Asking where
I'm at
Hate this place between my ears
It's a bad place to be alone
Running from from my mind
Runnin' till
I don't feel alone
Runnin' from the noise
Runnin' from the thoughts
I know
Runnin' from myself runnin'
But it won't let go
Pages turn to ash every
I write it
Every line
I leave feels like
I shouldn't sign it
Got notes full of things
I never finished
Told version of me that you stayed hidden
Stand in the shower way longer than needed
Water running cold, but
I barely feel it
Replay conversations, try to rewrite them
Like one different word would affix the feeling
They say you change, I just say
I'm tired
Don't want to explain it
Don't want to lie more
Laugh in the moment, then go change
I just say
I'm tired
Don't wanna explain it
Don't wanna lie more
Laugh in the moment
Then go quiet
Sleeping
I'm alone
It comes back stronger stronger
Hate this place between my ears
It's a bad place to be alone
Running from my mind
Running till
I don't feel home
Runnin' from the north
Runnin' from the dark side of the world
Runnin' from myself runnin'
But it won't let go